30 minute Free-Write

The task here I guess is to find flashes of memory or whatever or something like that at least. Im not sure what to really write about or what really comes to mind first. My childhood wasn't really that eventful. Pretty average really. The same thing happened over and over again and no wild or exiting things really come to mind or that I find drawn to. I went to three schools before coming to bard. PS15, Grand Concourse Academy, and Ps3. One thing that really shaped me was that transition. I used to find myself to be sensitive. Too sensitive. As in everything bothered me or every insult whether serious or not I took seriously. Always looking for someone else's approval and always so goddamn arrogant. I hate my younger self with a passion. I like to think that he and I are two different people. Sometimes I wish I could do things over where I don't hate my younger self. Thinking about it there is one thing that comes to mind when thinking of my transition from the charter school to the public one. I was not ready for it at all. The maturity levels of kids in Public school are way higher than those in a public charter school. During my first weeks I was bullied pretty hard. Back then I took it pretty seriously but thinking about it now I probably deserved it. Hell, I would bully me too. There are things I wish I learned before going to a public school. Like how much the brand of your clothes mattered, or your hair cut. The closest definition I had of a shape-up were those sketchers shoe commercials I had seen the week before. One thing that sticks out to me most was when the question we had to answer was: If you were stranded on an Island list what five things you would bring? While some answered with common answers like food and water, others answered with oreos and kool-aid or something stupid like that. I, feeling like I HAD to prove how clever I was went with the smart ass answer of Solar panels, radio, communicator, and two other things I can't remember. From that day onward I was known as the asshole who brings solar panels to an island.